Hakuna Matata
Jan. 16th, 2004 08:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morrigan716What a wonderful phrase! No seriously. How I wish I could completely adhere to this problem-free philosophy and just have no worries for the rest of my days.
Without a doubt, I am a worry wort. I let people's opinions get the best of me. Not strangers, but people I see every day or people I care about or am or was once close to. I often act like I'm not worried or not affected by something, but deep down I'll be dying.
One "worry" that I thought was going to continue slowly destroying me for "the rest of my days". But I have survived and am slowly recovering. Honestly more quickly than I though I would. That one will pass, and I will go on.
But the new issue sucks even harder because I can't really discuss it with anyone. Too much is at stake. No, not my life or anyone else's, but I have a lot to lose if word gets out. Don't worry, it's really not that horrible. I think I'm probably just making a bigger deal out of it than I need to. But that's me, letting minor issues burn me, tear me up inside, drain me, etc.
It is my new goal to run around with "Hakuna Matata" in my head all day. Or at least the next time I start worrying needlessly over nothing. Maybe I should get one of those things like in South Park, only instead of shocking me when I say a curse word, every time I say "life sucks", it would pipe show tunes through my brain waves. '
It's very geeky I know, but I honestly think it would help.
Without a doubt, I am a worry wort. I let people's opinions get the best of me. Not strangers, but people I see every day or people I care about or am or was once close to. I often act like I'm not worried or not affected by something, but deep down I'll be dying.
One "worry" that I thought was going to continue slowly destroying me for "the rest of my days". But I have survived and am slowly recovering. Honestly more quickly than I though I would. That one will pass, and I will go on.
But the new issue sucks even harder because I can't really discuss it with anyone. Too much is at stake. No, not my life or anyone else's, but I have a lot to lose if word gets out. Don't worry, it's really not that horrible. I think I'm probably just making a bigger deal out of it than I need to. But that's me, letting minor issues burn me, tear me up inside, drain me, etc.
It is my new goal to run around with "Hakuna Matata" in my head all day. Or at least the next time I start worrying needlessly over nothing. Maybe I should get one of those things like in South Park, only instead of shocking me when I say a curse word, every time I say "life sucks", it would pipe show tunes through my brain waves. '
It's very geeky I know, but I honestly think it would help.
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Date: 2004-01-16 07:52 pm (UTC)Hope your new issue isn't anything too horrible. I am always willing to listen if you need an ear. Love ya.
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Date: 2004-01-16 09:37 pm (UTC)I wish i could be worry free too. But I think trying not to worry just makes me worry about all the things im not worrying about and should be... lol does that make sense? I dont know.
"Lfe is a Cabaret Ole Chum" la la
Date: 2004-01-17 01:29 am (UTC)geez, yeah, changing thinking & worry is a commitment....good on you though!
Hope your secret goes ok