Stolen from clusterkilled

Ask me ANY THREE QUESTIONS, they can be ANYTHING you want, and I will answer them.

You are then supposed to copy/paste this into your own LJ so anyone including myself may ask you any three questions they desire.

Life is bittersweet

It seems like whenever something good happens, something shitty happens to cancel it out. Or at least make it not as cool. I get a brand new, pretty car, and dent it two weeks later. I get medical insurance for the first time in my life, then have dental problems. Of course since I've never had issues with my teeth, I didn't order the dental insurance. Ach!

I went to the oral surgeon, Dr. Hickman, who says the bad tooth (which is actually just the roots) needs to come out ASAP. The other wisdom tooth on the top has the same problem, it just doesn't hurt yet, so it needs to come out too. The other one, the only one, on the bottom has a bad ass cavity, so it may as well come out since it is completely useless without the top tooth anyway. Well, the cost is $630 and it all has to be paid up front. They said I could pay it out if I passed the credit check, and of course I didn't. I started crying and said I'd ask my parents, because I sure as hell don't want to deal with this fucking pain until I can come up with it, which would be about a month.

I call my parents, and ironically, though they paid $2300 for me to go to England, they won't pay $630 for me to get out of excruciating pain. And I planned on paying them back for this. I guess they weren't kidding when they said they "cut me off". Apparently they think I mean, "Ouch, I have a toothache," when I'm really saying, "GODDAMNIT, THIS FUCKING HURTS!"

After crying all night long, giving myself a killer headache, and being unable to go to work, I went ahead and kept my appointment that I was supposed to go to on my lunch hour. My counselor at Helen Farabee talked me into calling my church. They said they could probably swing it, and I offered to pay them back $100 a month until it was paid back, and I guess that means I have to go back to church regularly. They are supposed to call back tomorrow morning and tell me for sure. They will at least be able to pay part of it.

OK, I have church issues, but being a member of the same church for 25 years has done me some good. Even though I haven't attended in months, except for Palm Sunday, they still want to help me. I was the first unwed mom who got a shower. They've helped me with electric bills. I got a very cheap babysitter out of it. So I guess I shouldn't be hostile toward my church. Only a few people there have caused me grief, and the ones who used to aren't around any more. And attending every Sunday for an hour shouldn't kill me. I've done it before.

I wasn't cast in "Daddy's Dyin'", but I'll probably end up helping out backstage. And Alexander might end up playing the little boy in the video tape. I don't mind, though. Being on the crew of a show is an adventure as well.

To occupy my Vicodin-induced thoughts, I stole a little survey thing from _stadtkind_

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As soon as I start feeling back to my usual self, I will post pics of my cleavage.

Feel My Pain

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you’re sure you’ve had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don’t let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it’s time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you’ve had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don’t throw your hand. Oh, no. Don’t throw your hand.
If you feel like you’re alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you’re on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you’ve had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. hold on, hold on. hold on, hold on.