morrigan716 | Life is bittersweet

It seems like whenever something good happens, something shitty happens to cancel it out. Or at least make it not as cool. I get a brand new, pretty car, and dent it two weeks later. I get medical insurance for the first time in my life, then have dental problems. Of course since I've never had issues with my teeth, I didn't order the dental insurance. Ach!

I went to the oral surgeon, Dr. Hickman, who says the bad tooth (which is actually just the roots) needs to come out ASAP. The other wisdom tooth on the top has the same problem, it just doesn't hurt yet, so it needs to come out too. The other one, the only one, on the bottom has a bad ass cavity, so it may as well come out since it is completely useless without the top tooth anyway. Well, the cost is $630 and it all has to be paid up front. They said I could pay it out if I passed the credit check, and of course I didn't. I started crying and said I'd ask my parents, because I sure as hell don't want to deal with this fucking pain until I can come up with it, which would be about a month.

I call my parents, and ironically, though they paid $2300 for me to go to England, they won't pay $630 for me to get out of excruciating pain. And I planned on paying them back for this. I guess they weren't kidding when they said they "cut me off". Apparently they think I mean, "Ouch, I have a toothache," when I'm really saying, "GODDAMNIT, THIS FUCKING HURTS!"

After crying all night long, giving myself a killer headache, and being unable to go to work, I went ahead and kept my appointment that I was supposed to go to on my lunch hour. My counselor at Helen Farabee talked me into calling my church. They said they could probably swing it, and I offered to pay them back $100 a month until it was paid back, and I guess that means I have to go back to church regularly. They are supposed to call back tomorrow morning and tell me for sure. They will at least be able to pay part of it.

OK, I have church issues, but being a member of the same church for 25 years has done me some good. Even though I haven't attended in months, except for Palm Sunday, they still want to help me. I was the first unwed mom who got a shower. They've helped me with electric bills. I got a very cheap babysitter out of it. So I guess I shouldn't be hostile toward my church. Only a few people there have caused me grief, and the ones who used to aren't around any more. And attending every Sunday for an hour shouldn't kill me. I've done it before.

I wasn't cast in "Daddy's Dyin'", but I'll probably end up helping out backstage. And Alexander might end up playing the little boy in the video tape. I don't mind, though. Being on the crew of a show is an adventure as well.

To occupy my Vicodin-induced thoughts, I stole a little survey thing from

_stadtkind_

Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
1. Falling for too many men
2. Drinking too much
3. Talking to myself in public.
4. Spending way too much time on LJ.

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
1. More money
2. My own house
3. A hot, sexy body
4. A futon

Name Four Scents You Love:
1. Lavender
2. Vanilla
3. Ginger
4. Rose

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
1. Siscly
2. Nathan
3. Daniel
4. Dustin

Name Four Things You’d Never Wear: (onstage excluded)
1. Anything pink
2. A two piece bathing suit
3. Anything that shows my arms
4. Tight blue jeans.

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. That my fucking tooth hurts.
2. That I'm craving doughnuts. Oh God!
3. That I'll be way behind at work tomorrow for calling in today.
4. That I really need to pick my nose.

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. Called in sick to work.
2. Called Cindy to come get Alexander
3. Called church from HFC.
4. Picked up license plates.

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
1. 12-pack of Diet Dr. Pepper
2. Newsapaper
3. Chocolate milk
4. A Slurpee for Alex.

Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don’t Know You Like:
1. Godsmack
2. Dixie Chicks
3. Ace of Base
4. Ricky Martin

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. Diet Dr. Pepper
2. Coffee
3. Micholob Ultra
4. Water

Last Words You Said:
out loud? "bye"

Last Song You Sang?
"Precious Memories"

Last Thing You Laughed At?
It was probably sarcastic or hysterical laughter brought on by use of multiple pain killers.

Last Time You Said ’I Love You’ And Meant It?
A few weeks ago. But not in a romantic way.

Last Time You Cried?
A few hours ago.

What’s In Your CD Player?
Incubus

What Color Socks Are You Wearing?
I'm barefooted

What’s Under Your Bed?
Dust

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
8:30

Current Taste?
Water

Current Hair?
Shoulder length, blonde, and messed up.

Current Clothes?
My black house dress

Current Annoyance?
My fucking tooth.

Current Worry?
Paying to get my teeth taken care of.

Current Hate?
Uncompassionate people.

Favorite thing about the opposite sex?
Appearance-wise, mouth and eyes.

Last CD You Bought?
Incubus

Favorite Place To Be?
England

Least Favorite Place?
The dentist's office

Time You Wake Up In The Morning?
Normally about 7:00

Favorite Color?
Black

Do You Believe In An Afterlife?
Yes

How Tall Are You?
5'5"

Favorite Season?
Spring

Where Would You Like To Go?
England/Scotland

What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?
Well, it's just starting, but I'd like to have more money at it eventually.